The former “Dancing with the Stars” stunner, 33, recalled the trauma she experienced after the split while discussing the chatter that she’d break her current beau 21 Savage’s heart on Wednesday’s episode of Complex’s “Everyday Struggle” morning show.
“I see this a lot on the internet: ‘Amber’s going to hurt him.’ I’ve been the one that’s been heartbroken,” she fumed. “I have never cheated on any of my boyfriends. I still have never said anything mean about Kanye … This is after six, seven years of constant bullying from him,” she added. “I was quiet for so long. I could have gotten a reality show just off the fact that I was his girlfriend. I could have [written] a book just about being his girlfriend.”
Instead, Rose, who dated West from 2008 to 2010, said she took the high road and used the connections she made during the relationship to establish herself as a brand and an entrepreneur, in part because the fame that came with dating the rapper, 40, made it impossible to go back to her roots as a dancer in Philadelphia who grew up so poor that she didn’t even have a bed.
“I didn’t get a head start. [People] come from money, their families come from money, or they get a check from their parents,” she said. “I had to sleep on the floor with my mom. So for me, to have that type of lifestyle with a man and then not have it anymore, but to still walk out of my house and have paparazzi outside but with no money — I had to figure that out.”
“The only thing I got from him was fame, and fame don’t get you no f—king money, period,” she added. “I had to just take that. I had to take that heartbreak on top of it.”
Rose also struggled with being a muse for West’s 2010 album “My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy,” in part because she wasn’t even the inspiration for a lot of the tracks that listeners linked her with.
“I’m sure he said s—t pertaining to other pieces in his life that didn’t have to do with me,” she snapped. “It was like, ‘Her brother is on coke.’ I have two little brothers. They’re kids! So that wasn’t true … It just didn’t pertain to me personally. Everyone else just thought it was about me but it wasn’t,” she said. “It’s a great part of history and it’s a great part of hip-hop and that’s cool, and I’m happy to be a part of it, but that time was not a great time for me.”
Things were so bad that the model-turned-television personality felt that she had no options left.
“‘I’m famous, and I’m broke. I don’t have any money.’ We weren’t married, he didn’t owe me s—t. I had to figure out what I was going to do with the fame and with my life at that time,” she recalled. “Then it’s like, ‘I can’t date anyone else. I can’t say anything on the internet because Kanye has such a voice.’”
“Imagine being me,” she continued. “It’s constant scrutiny. If I was going to kill myself, I would have done it during those times. I don’t mean literally, because I’m a strong-minded person, but I had to be me to go through that. I don’t think a lot of people would’ve gotten through that the way I did.”